He Has Joined My Mother In Heaven

My father died on February 18, 2009.  He was 83 years old.  He never had to spend one day in a nursing home.  He left this earth peacefully sometime between 4:00 am and 6:30 am.  My younger brother checked on him about 4:00 am and kissed him before leaving for work...Dad was awake and spoke briefly to my brother.  My older brother checked in on him at 6:30 ...by then he was gone.

I am thankful that he was my father.  He was very intelligent, had great integrity, was quirky and funny and loved my mother very much.  I will love him forever.  I miss him greatly, but know he has gone to a better place, where he will never again suffer from his cancer, nor will he ever pine for my mother because I know that God has reunited them.

I will cherish the memories of the last few months when I had the privilege of assisting in his care and sharing many wonderful and priceless moments....he remained mentally acute until the very end, and I believe he was teaching me how to accept the end of life with grace.  He was that way, very generous yet firm in the education of his children.

I am now struggling to move on, but it is very difficult since I spoke to my dad every day, and feel a huge void without him.  He left so quickly, I wish my last conversation was different, and yet each time we spoke, we always told each other "I love you."  I also frequently told him he was my sweetheart, and he said the same of me...thank God that I have those memories to hold on to.

His birthday was one day before mine and each year we would have that special bond as well, wishing each other happy birthday on about the same day....I don't know how it will be from now on...celebrating with him gone... I am a grown woman, but feel the loss like a little girl.

ginger1979 ginger1979
41-45, F
1 Response Feb 26, 2009

I am very sorry for the loss of your dad. It is true that<br />
the memories will help so much. But I am sure that you will miss his physical presence a lot too.<br />
God Bless , Debby