My Stepdad Is Dying of Cancer

My stepdad was diagnosed with melanoma a little over three years ago. He has lived a pretty normal life with it until now. About a month ago he had a tumor removed from his brain. Since then, tumors have appeared all over his body right under his skin. They are all over him and they look like they are gonna break through his skin. He can't really walk or get around. My mom is taking care of him, she refuses hospice because she knows he will just give up if they come in. He is a very stubborn man.  The doctors said he may have 3 months left.

My stepdad is a great man, he's in his early 50's. He loves his family to the core, even though most of them do not treat him with the love he deserves. But still he loves them just the same. And he has always loved me and accepted me as his, even when I would not give him the time of day. Me and my real dad have not spoke in the last 10 years, but that's another story.  Anyways, it is not fair, I just feel so angry and hurt inside. This man loves life, he loves people, and he loves God. He doesn't take life for granted. And he only treats people how he would want to be treated. It's not fair. I don't understand why he has to die in so much pain. I don't understand why God is taking him so soon. I don't understand why someone who loves life so much is getting it cut short.

There is so much I want to say but as I am typing this my heart is breaking and aching and I just want to go cry. I just got off the phone with my mom when I decided to sit down and share my story. She is having somewhat of a meltdown today, which she has every right to do, since lately she has not been showing much emotion at all. She tries so hard to stay strong for him. I just feel so helpless.

Thanks for letting me share.

want2befree want2befree
26-30, F
2 Responses Jul 8, 2009

My heart goes out to you. Spend as much time as you can with your step dad and cherish your time with him. Sending you hugs.

*hugs* It always seems to be those who love life the most that leave it soonest. At least they pack a lot of love and happiness into the time they are with us.