Everything About It.

The smell of a doctors office, and the sound of the paper beds...  UGH!  It reminds me of being a kid and nearly everytime I went to the doctor I had to get a shot.  I feared shots so bad.  One time my parents and a bunch of nurses had to carry me, kicking and screaming, down the hall.  Then on another occasion my grandma, uncle, nurses, and the doctor had to hold me down. 

It was very traumatizing.  Two years ago I had to go to the hospital to see my cousin's grandfather as he was dying.  I had been to the hospital in the years since my grandfather's death, but I was always on the childbirth floor to see babies or something.  I had not been on the oncology floor since the last time my grandfather stayed in the hospital, right before he died in 1998. 

So when the elevator doors opened, we were walking down the hall, and I felt dizzy and lightheaded like I was going to faint.  My heart was beating so fast and I could barely catch my breath.  It was totally unexpected.  I had to sit down as soon as we entered the room.  Eventually I calmed down.  My dad's gf walked me down to the maternity floor so that we could see babies, because I just had to get out of there.

As far as me actually going to see a doctor myself, its been years.  I am terrified.  I know I need to go in for my first gyno exam, but I am so scared I will have a panic attack and faint during the procedure.  My biggest fear about the doctors office is getting blood test.  When I bleed, I faint.  And it just seems that in my life when I get to the doctor they always spring these not so pleasant surprises on me.  It would be just my luck the doctor would request blood work and I know for sure I'll have a panic attack and faint then!


urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin
22-25, F
6 Responses Feb 26, 2009

Yah me too. You had the same experiance as I did.<br />
Once when I was a kid the nurse and m;y father had to hold me down so the doctor could check my <br />
tonsils. <br />
This must be part of why I have a doctor phobia.<br />
Plus I have been near death three times in my life.<br />
Each time I was lucky enough to be saved by a gifted Doctor.<br />
My goal is to overcome this phobia.

Oh and by the way miss know it all nurse who could not possibly feel what we feel - You need to have a little more compassion than that... Dont cha Hunni? You need to understand that this condition we suffer from pops up out of the blue so why dont you become part of the solution instead of the problem with a little more compassion.

Hi urbrand:<br />
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Just wanted to let you know I am totally with you. I share the exact same story. Something in my childhood freaked me out and has stayed with me. I find what helps is bringing an ipod in or try rescue remedy you can get it at any health food store. I have been doing a little hypnosis too which calms me down too. Good luck to you!!!

Hip hip hooray for xanax!!!

Yeah, I know you guys aren't bad =D<br />
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I will just take a bunch of xanax before I go lol

Oh hunni......we in the medical field from docs to nursing assistants just want to help people be well. Sorry you had a traumatic experience but truly we hate when our patients freak out too :-)