Confused State...

i have this feeling somewhat solemn feeling.. ive had it lingering for a bit since about the summer... its weird. It started off as just a straight line feeling. More like complacent, as the months went by, I keep meeting people they come and go.. sometimes withoout an explaination and a strong sense of anxiety started in the pit of my stomach. Again my feelings went down back to straight line, all of a sudden Hurricane Sandy hit and yet it didnt hit my area in particular it hit near home, and all of a sudden I sensed a feeling of sadness and desperation. I went out there to help people yet I still came home with an unfulfilled feeling. For the past month and a half I have not been able to sleep much, or go to the gym or just continue life normally.Ive withdrawn from the world to try to settle these feelings yet I try to go out and distract myself and do things to keep myself entertained but I always come back home with this emptiness in my heart. I recently reconnected with someone that Ive met three- four years ago and we went out and had an amazing time the few times we hung out... the weirdest feeling that he gave me was at the moments Id look into his eyes, i felt this overwhelming feeling of excitement, sincerity, happiness but an overwhelming feeling of wanting to cry, like an extreme sadness.. but of course I wasnt going to do that to him and scare him off. But hes not spoken to me and im still trying to understand whats with this heavy feeling on my heart.. It feels like its almost difficult to breath...
scatterbrain513 scatterbrain513
22-25, F
1 Response Nov 29, 2012

You will figure it out. Keep looking. The answer will find you. Just be open to the possibilities.