I've just recently discovered that I am extreme people pleaser. This means that it is super important that people think well of me. I've experienced the positives and negatives of this throughout my entire life because putting the opinions of others above my own does have its price. I have always tried my best to create a good impression of myself, especially physically. This has been a tiring process since people have different opinions and in reality you can't please everybody all of the time.
After wearing padded bras since I can remember, it just hit me that this is the one area that I definitely have to accept about myself before I can genuinely accept myself as a whole. I've considered getting implants but what if my real insecurity is about me instead of just about my chest? Then in my opinion I've just wasted a whole lot of money on something that I thought would restore my self-worth!
Although I am confident as I type this, there is still a feeling inside of, "why not just get the surgery done anyway"? This has been a battle in my mind for as long as I can remember.