I Have a Gay Brother
Now he never really "came out" but did hint many times. I knew he was attracted to male bodies...probably since he entered puberty.
Caught him looking at **** and touching himself once on the living room computer and knowing it was the "public computer" plus in a very un-private location, suggested he clear his tracks and do it in his bedroom where he would have more privacy.
He was embarrassed of course, but also desperately curious and guilty because he started pouring out questions.
And I wasn't sure if I should be advising him! Sex and anything related to "private parts" is/was taboo in our very conservative Asian Christian household. Further more, I knew my mother considered touching of one's private parts was filthy and sinful unless it was just for washing. So I myself was new to erotica, and ************ at an age much older than when an American teen would had discovered their growing sexuality...and my brother was turning to probably the only family member he trusted. His sister. Me. Not even our older brother - I'd asked if he'd asked our older brother.
What could I do? I really hesitated. On one hand I knew what was the "right" thing to say - it's a sin and he shouldn't touch or look.
On the other hand,those were not my beliefs and did I want him to spend his youth wracked with guilt like me??
But then who am I to push my beliefs on him?
I ended up saying that in *my opinion*, I did not think ************ was wrong. That sexual curiosity was a natural thing and he should not feel guilty, just do it in private.
On ***********, I reminded him that a lot of it was fake and would not be like that in real life. I told him to make his own judgement call on if it was a demeaning thing or a sin to watch.
On him being sexually attracted to males, I said that he was my brother and always would be - no matter what orientation.
Suggested he only tell people he trusted when he was ready.
I hugged him briefly. Rather awkwardly, as despite his worried questions, he still had a hardon lol.
Forgot all about it until a couple of years later one afternoon as we walked to the store...he said he thought he liked men and would like a boyfriend. But he's never said even to me outright "I'm gay"
No one else in the house knows. Mother have gotten more accepting because the church started preaching "hate the sin not the sinner", she no longer considers (or so she says) lgbt monsters...but I wonder if she could deal with the shock of knowing the truth about how her children are so deviant from the Christian point of view.
Hopefully one day my brother will be able to stop hiding and find love too.
Caught him looking at **** and touching himself once on the living room computer and knowing it was the "public computer" plus in a very un-private location, suggested he clear his tracks and do it in his bedroom where he would have more privacy.
He was embarrassed of course, but also desperately curious and guilty because he started pouring out questions.
And I wasn't sure if I should be advising him! Sex and anything related to "private parts" is/was taboo in our very conservative Asian Christian household. Further more, I knew my mother considered touching of one's private parts was filthy and sinful unless it was just for washing. So I myself was new to erotica, and ************ at an age much older than when an American teen would had discovered their growing sexuality...and my brother was turning to probably the only family member he trusted. His sister. Me. Not even our older brother - I'd asked if he'd asked our older brother.
What could I do? I really hesitated. On one hand I knew what was the "right" thing to say - it's a sin and he shouldn't touch or look.
On the other hand,those were not my beliefs and did I want him to spend his youth wracked with guilt like me??
But then who am I to push my beliefs on him?
I ended up saying that in *my opinion*, I did not think ************ was wrong. That sexual curiosity was a natural thing and he should not feel guilty, just do it in private.
On ***********, I reminded him that a lot of it was fake and would not be like that in real life. I told him to make his own judgement call on if it was a demeaning thing or a sin to watch.
On him being sexually attracted to males, I said that he was my brother and always would be - no matter what orientation.
Suggested he only tell people he trusted when he was ready.
I hugged him briefly. Rather awkwardly, as despite his worried questions, he still had a hardon lol.
Forgot all about it until a couple of years later one afternoon as we walked to the store...he said he thought he liked men and would like a boyfriend. But he's never said even to me outright "I'm gay"
No one else in the house knows. Mother have gotten more accepting because the church started preaching "hate the sin not the sinner", she no longer considers (or so she says) lgbt monsters...but I wonder if she could deal with the shock of knowing the truth about how her children are so deviant from the Christian point of view.
Hopefully one day my brother will be able to stop hiding and find love too.
By:
Nephari
Age:
22-25
,
Female
