...at Least Sometimes It Feels That Way.

Maybe it's that I don't learn very well when taught certain ways. Sometimes I learn remarkably quickly, and other times it feels like beating my head on a wall. Take, for example, this medical transcription course I'm studying. I think working as an MT (industry lingo for Medical Transcriptionist) would be sweet--if only for a couple years. You can do it from nearly anywhere and make decent money. I like having options. Who doesn't? Anyway, this course is about as exciting as sitting on the toilet for months and months with the door closed. There's a crap-load of text, it's all very small; much of it isn't worded very succinctly (it seems to be worded in the most verbose, complex way possible); and most pages are focused around rote learning; that is, learning simply by repetition. It feels about like trying to eat your way through a plate of sand. Not pleasant. But, completing the course would be a serious milestone for me. It'd mean that I've finally completed something educational--after dropping out of both high school and then college. That'd be a sweet sense of satisfaction. But in order to do that, I have to eat my way through this pile of sand.

Is it just me? Or is it very hard for others to learn that way? I've read that the "experts" think that people tend to have different learning styles and strengths, though I'm not really certain how exactly I learn best, and to what sort of things I'm drawn to.

That's one example. The other example is a couple courses I'm working on in the attempt to learn Flex (a programming language) and Spanish. For Flex I have a book based course and a DVD based course. Both are challenging because if I can't figure something out I don't have anyone else around to ask. I can't ask for clarification, or guidance, or additional information on theory. Spanish isn't quite as bad, but still, with it it feels tremendously...disconnected. There's no context I guess for learning any of this stuff. Yet people (read: employers) want you to have learned stuff before they hire you. When you need a foreign language, it's generally too late to start learning one. So there's a lot of things in life that theoretically need to be learned without context. How does one get around that obstacle? Is there a way of visualizing context or creating it?

My mom says I'm a "very good independent learner." I'm not sure that's true. I almost feel like I need the support system available in a traditional college setting, but then I find myself frustrated by how slowly that system moves, and by how inflexible it can be to individual students needs.

I'm not going to give up. I'm going to keep trying. After all, in anything, it's only when we quit trying that we really have failed.
liferiot liferiot
26-30, M
Jan 14, 2007