Not Something I Learned...

Showing emotions wasn't something I ever learned to do...infact I made sure I didn't show emotions when I was a kid. I had to have complete control over can't control anything else but yourself right? For example. To me if someone else cried it was ok...I mean obviously they needed to. but if I cried it was because I was weak...because I couldn't handle myself...and so I wouldn't allow it. I can actually remember telling myself to stop it and that I was being rediculous. So I'd turn it off. Now, because of that, I don't even know how to show emotion...I don't know how to reaction to things so that other people know how I'm feeling. I can watch a funny movie that I really like and you'd never know I liked it...infact you'd think I hated it...because I don't know how to act so that you'll know I liked it. It's caused me a lot of problems in my life and I'm not even that old yet.

pepsi21addict pepsi21addict
22-25, F
2 Responses Apr 11, 2007

This may not be what you want to hear but I think you are going to need some professional help on this one.<br />
I recommend you seek some counseling and try to understand this so that you can begin to deal with it.<br />
It is not healthy to live without releasing emotions.<br />
I wonder how or what your relationships are like, Are you married?