Thin Line ..

What I love about my past is that it has molded me into the person I am today. Without the hardship and pain that I went through I would have never opened my eyes to what I am able to see today. I take full responsibility for every choice I made in my life. I knew what I was doing, I could have avoided so much of the pain that I had to go through.

What I hate about my past is that it seems like it is always finding its way into the present. As hard as I try I can't seem to keep the past where it belongs. People, places, and things are always bringing back the memories that cut me the deepest. They say that time heals all..What a lie, as time goes on the pain gets worse. Regret hits me the harder and harder everyday. I just don't know how to forgive myself.

The past holds some memories that would be considered as nightmares to most. I have not only hurt myself with the things I have done in the past but I have also hurt the people that I care the most about. If I can't forgive myself how could I ever ask them to forgive me.

The line between love and hate is very thin.

buggabooLOVE buggabooLOVE
18-21, F
2 Responses Jan 21, 2013

I'm sorry for what you've been through, mate.

Well, I'm sorry you can't leave it behind, anyway.

The parts of the past that cut you also shaped you. You may have regrets and maybe you should not forgive yourself. Work so others forgive you may be as good as it will ever be.