Love But Do Not Like

My grandmother hated me for as long as I can remember. She favored my sister and yes she hit me in my face for no good reason. I found the reason behind this very stupid. She hates my dad and apparently they are hiding the reason or they truly don't know. I'm the only one in my family that looks like her side of the family. That is until she was diagnosed with cancer throughout her body. She became a "perfect grandma" after she found out.

I still love her and always will but I feel there will always be a grudge against her. I feel guilty having a feeling of dislike of a old woman slowly losing her body and mind. She has forgetful episodes and they are increasing. I can't stop myself from being her little leaning post. I just hope that we can tolerate each other until the end I would feel horrible if I broke and say something horrible and it being the last words I say to her.
KrazyAngeljm KrazyAngeljm
22-25, F
Jan 16, 2013