More Than One.

Right now I don't feel like elaborating on what makes me ****** up, so I'll just get to the point.

I hate this. I never asked to have a mental illness. All I wanted was to be normal like most other people. Just the smallest thing can trigger me. Most people wouldn't be upset over the things I want to die over. My meds don't work. My shrink doesn't even UNDERSTAND me. Is there even a way out? I don't want to be in this black hole anymore.
lntel lntel
2 Responses Jan 10, 2012

i have a website to suggest, but I don't want to put it here. PM me.

I know what it is like to want to be normal. I would cry and pray for that everyday. Then I realized what is normal? Is anyone really normal? I used to cut myself when I was your age also, I did it because the physicall pain felt better than the emotional pain I was going through. I too had no one to talk to or felt no one would understand me. So, i stopped relaying on people to help me, I started to help myself. I did things that made me feel good about myself. I stopped thinking of all the bad things that happened to me and starting thinking of the good things that happened. I started turning the negitive into positive and took control over my life. I soon realized that if your waiting for people to give your praise on a job well done you're going to be waiting for a very long time. I started to praise myself , so when I made an accomplishment that way I was never let down. <br />
I was told that you can be your own worst enemy or your own best friend. I decided I was going to be my own best friend and start taking care of me. If i don't who will?<br />
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I'm not perferct and I don't try to be perfect. I am who I am flaws in all, it doesn't matter if people like me or not, the important thing is that I like myself.