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Having A Mental Illness Is A Very Lonely Existance

It is very hard to live a normal life with mental disabilites, and especially hard to make friends with them. I have bipolar, anxiety, post traumatic stress, borderline personality, dermatillomania, and fear of abandonment. Oh, I know how I developed these issues. I had a terrible childhood but i’m 45 years old now and yet they still affect me. I try too hard. I try to be friendly but it turns out I end up being overly friendly. I have a louder voice than most and I am a very talkative person so I come off as annoying and obnoxious. Oh, I have so many aquaintances who call themselves my friends and we talk and say hello when we bump into one another. But they never call. They never visit. My dorbell never rings. I never have company, my phone never rings, I am never invited anywhere. And when I invite people places or to my home they always have excuses.

It’s funny. So many people look forward to their days off but I don’t. On my days off all I do is watch t.v. or go online, or clean my house. It is just sad that people in todays world can’t handle disabilities. It's a very lonely existance. Just wanted to share.
iskykabibblez iskykabibblez 41-45, F 7 Responses Mar 20, 2012

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I have friends who never call and never visit, too, and I don't have a mental illness. Sounds like what you need are better friends.

YOU ARE NOT AONE FIRST ITS NOT YOUR FAULT MANY PPL HAVE MENTAL DISORDERS I HAVE OCD ANXIETY AND SOCIAL PHOBIA I GET WITHDRWAN IN CROWDS IT CAN GET TO NUSH FOR ME JUST HANG IN THERE KNOW ITS NOT YOU ITS OTHERS MISCONCEPTIONS OF MENTAL ILLNESS. BUT I DO UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL LOL.VINNY

i know what you mean, im kind of an odd guy, so its hard for me to make freinds, i stay in out of fear of the outside world, im a hermit perty much, but i do get out sometimes, its just rare. keep your chin up, and remember theres alot of people with the same problems as you, keep on keeping on.

its like your writing my thoughts.... i so understand... im there... well im lost actually x

I saw your comment and want to thank you for being open enough to be able to write your experiences down. I have had mental illness on and of for over 40 years and my sister, now 55+, is a diagnosed schizophrenic.i

I agree, it is hard to live with mental impairments, but alot of us do. It's just we have a harder time doing it, but just because it's hard doesn't mean it is achevialbe.



If you ever need someone to talk to you can send me an email whenever you like, sometimes it helps to talk about things, and to get it out.



Take Care.

I hear you, life gets quite lonely.