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I Have a Mental Illness

Having A Mental Illness Is A Very Lonely Existance

By: eleven1866
Written on March 20th, 2012
It is very hard to live a normal life with mental disabilites, and especially hard to make friends with them. I have bipolar, anxiety, post traumatic stress, borderline personality, dermatillomania, and fear of abandonment. Oh, I know how I developed these issues. I had a terrible childhood but i’m 45 years old now and yet they still affect me. I try too hard. I try to be friendly but it turns out I end up being overly friendly. I have a louder voice than most and I am a very talkative person so I come off as annoying and obnoxious. Oh, I have so many aquaintances who call themselves my friends and we talk and say hello when we bump into one another. But they never call. They never visit. My dorbell never rings. I never have company, my phone never rings, I am never invited anywhere. And when I invite people places or to my home they always have excuses.

It’s funny. So many people look forward to their days off but I don’t. On my days off all I do is watch t.v. or go online, or clean my house. It is just sad that people in todays world can’t handle disabilities. It's a very lonely existance. Just wanted to share.
By: eleven1866
Age: 41-45 , Female
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6 responses
  • mycuzinvinni
    mycuzinvinni

    YOU ARE NOT AONE FIRST ITS NOT YOUR FAULT MANY PPL HAVE MENTAL DISORDERS I HAVE OCD ANXIETY AND SOCIAL PHOBIA I GET WITHDRWAN IN CROWDS IT CAN GET TO NUSH FOR ME JUST HANG IN THERE KNOW ITS NOT YOU ITS OTHERS MISCONCEPTIONS OF MENTAL ILLNESS. BUT I DO UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL LOL.VINNY

    Nov 26, 2012
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  • thepalehispanic
    thepalehispanic

    i know what you mean, im kind of an odd guy, so its hard for me to make freinds, i stay in out of fear of the outside world, im a hermit perty much, but i do get out sometimes, its just rare. keep your chin up, and remember theres alot of people with the same problems as you, keep on keeping on.

    Nov 26, 2012
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  • DaizyChainz
    DaizyChainz

    its like your writing my thoughts.... i so understand... im there... well im lost actually x

    Apr 4, 2012
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  • wetlevis
    wetlevis

    I saw your comment and want to thank you for being open enough to be able to write your experiences down. I have had mental illness on and of for over 40 years and my sister, now 55+, is a diagnosed schizophrenic.i

    Mar 21, 2012
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  • awarren98
    awarren98

    I agree, it is hard to live with mental impairments, but alot of us do. It's just we have a harder time doing it, but just because it's hard doesn't mean it is achevialbe.



    If you ever need someone to talk to you can send me an email whenever you like, sometimes it helps to talk about things, and to get it out.



    Take Care.

    Mar 21, 2012
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  • asert12345678
    asert12345678

    I hear you, life gets quite lonely.

    Mar 21, 2012
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