Having A Mental Illness Is A Very Lonely ExistanceIt is very hard to live a normal life with mental disabilites, and especially hard to make friends with them. I have bipolar, anxiety, post traumatic stress, borderline personality, dermatillomania, and fear of abandonment. Oh, I know how I developed these issues. I had a terrible childhood but i’m 45 years old now and yet they still affect me. I try too hard. I try to be friendly but it turns out I end up being overly friendly. I have a louder voice than most and I am a very talkative person so I come off as annoying and obnoxious. Oh, I have so many aquaintances who call themselves my friends and we talk and say hello when we bump into one another. But they never call. They never visit. My dorbell never rings. I never have company, my phone never rings, I am never invited anywhere. And when I invite people places or to my home they always have excuses.
It’s funny. So many people look forward to their days off but I don’t. On my days off all I do is watch t.v. or go online, or clean my house. It is just sad that people in todays world can’t handle disabilities. It's a very lonely existance. Just wanted to share.