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I have been told I have depression, bi-polar, anxiety. Some say just depression. Idk, I gave up on therapy and medication. I get emotional alot. If I'm stressed out. I kinda go all hulk, throw things across the room, scream at the top of my lungs. Then maybe an hour or two later, if that. I'm me again. I'm really not a violent type of person, just sometimes I get overwelmed and have no way of letting it out.
Other times my depression rules my life. I put myself down constantly, and hate myself, especially today, I'm so clumsy I spilled my coffee twice, just on my leg, lovely.
anyways, sometimes when my family talks to me or about me. I feel like I'm on some MTV reality show. I don't like to talk about my feelings and I shut them out, and blah blah blah. I mean its true, but sometimes that just upsets me more.
Mentall Illness runs deep in my family, so my twin sister has a bit of it too, and we are constantly fighting. But there are days I can look through my depression and have the best day possible, others, its just such a buzz kill.
LadySarah09 LadySarah09 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 19, 2012

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The best way to deal with the uncontrollable bi polar rage is to go put on loud and just vent til I my throat hurts. Might not be the most mature way of dealing with it but it lets me calm down without doing anything stupid and reckless to myself or others. Do you ever feel really guilty when the anger fadea?

Wanna be my friend? I'm accident prone too, and I have a feeling we'd get along marvelously! Btw, I'm also bi-polar, so if you need someone to talk to about all the highs and lows of this disorder, contact me! I do take meds, but I believe that CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) has helped me just as much as my meds have. I'm a talker, and getting those deep emotions (I feel things very strongly also), helps me be able to cope better with the world and the bullsh*t that comes with being in this world.

I went off psychiatry, psychotropic meds and even therapy...nothing was working! I have a bunch of diagnosis...nobodyn seems to agree with what is that I have...although everyone agrees that I have something. I took psychotropic medications for 20 years WITH NO RESULTS. And I was allowed to deteriorate by ma primary care physician and 3 psychiatrists over a period of 4 years. I've had enough! Yes, I'm sick and medications can't help me. good they my meds I'm as good - or as bad - as i was ON THEM...

You need to be careful. Medications can be helpful sometimes and therapy can be beneficial.