Empty

 I feel very empty. I just can’t seem to see the brighter side of things any more and it scares me. I know on the outside that things aren’t really that bad. I have been through some rough times, but now I own a house and I have a steady job where I work at a desk and manage myself. My family loves me, although we’ve never shown emotions or talked about feelings within our family. I feel like I have support, but yet I have no one. I have stopped crying, too. I just don’t get sad anymore. I have no ambition and just feel like sleeping all the time. I force myself to do things around the house and to walk every night just so that I don’t feel dead. I have become such a crabby and unemotional person. I used to cry all the time, but now I just don’t feel anything to make me cry. I’m currently on the lowest dosage of Prozac, but I don’t think it’s doing any good. Maybe I’ll call the doctor today.
SQ SQ
26-30, F
1 Response May 22, 2007

Yeah, this was a while ago so I hope you've gone to see your doctor. I know exactly what you mean by doing things just so you don't feel dead. And feeling unemotional and wanting to sleep all the time. Those are classic symptoms of major depression. Meds are not the only answer. I would suggest you get into therapy individually or with a group, read self help books, try meditation and/or yoga...I still suffer from depression but it is better when I've done some of these things.