I Have BipolarI was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, last year while travelling abroad. My episodes are very manic followed by depression once my medication (Lithium and Olanazepine) have stabilised me. Being ill in a psychiatric hospital in a foreign country made it even more traumatic as my family had to fly out and I was literally jumping off the walls in the hospital!!! However everyone was very intrigued by me being English and very understanding. I had totally lost touch with reality and had lots of self beliefs that are very personal to me and which I still haven't shared with anyone other than my psychiatrist and partner because I know how people would more than likely respond. After this episode I started working in a new job however quickly became unwell again I think because of stress and definitely because of a lack of sleep. I lost my job as a result as they were reluctant to take me back despite being initially very supportive. I am now in a situation where I am probably at my fittest to work as I am well aware of my disorder now and accept it but justifying my employment which total a year is very hard as most employers become apprehensive. I have considered justifying this gap by not disclosing and using other reasons. However I feel that due to the stigma of having a mental illness and people not really understanding it and how we can live a normal life with the right support and medication, society and employers alienate people with a mental illness as being mad, crazy, dillusional when hearing the words 'schizophrenic' or 'manic depressive'.
crazyone 21-25, F 12 Responses 22 Jul 20, 2006