That's my illness.  Currently self medicating (Alcohol), have been on prescribed meds before.  Worked for a while.  Am just miserable right about now......never ends.  Oh well, such is the nature of the beast.  Acceptance is both empowering and restrictive to recovery- depending on your mood at any given moment lol!!!

Lola1976 Lola1976
31-35, F
4 Responses Feb 14, 2009

I agree that trying other medications is likely to help, I also suggest that you try one of the therapies that has good evidence to back it up when treating depression, such as Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT), and Interpersonal Therapy.

I've had the depression for the past 25 years. Mine was caused by a head injury. I was hit by a car back when I was 15. (my story is on here, "Hit and run").<br />
I'm on disability for all these depression and anxiety problems. I just found out I'm suffering from BPD also.<br />
I discovered that if I got drunk, I could function like a normal person, I could even hold a job! Well, Social Security found out about my cure, and they sent me to an outpatient rehab center. I learned that I was slowly killing my self. Death don't scare me, but years and years of pain does. I quit cold turkey. I did something, and I was proud of my self (rare feeling).<br />
I have my good days, and I have my dreaded bad days. But I will never have my cover-up drunk days again!<br />
I wish you lots of luck and sober days. If I can do it, so can you!

Hey there,<br />
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I know what you are saying. I have been going through the same cycle for many years and have known for a long time that I am dealing with two problems here, one being the depression and the other the alcohol abuse, which as by the sounds of you you know all to well starts out as something to soothe the symptoms but just increases them. I'm still trying to curb my drinking, once I can do that for a while the depressive symptoms will resurface fully and I will have to deal with them some other way. I''m trying to be hopeful....but you may be right. I might have to reconsider other medication. Thanks for your comments. It all helps. :-)

Trust me , from some who has been there, and still is. Alcohol does not medicate depression. <br />
I had to learn the hard way. Alcohol just temporarily covers up the symptoms. Unless you never intend to become sober again, the depression will still be there.<br />
I suggest you talk to your doctor and try other meds. before you give up on them altogether.