I Don't Know, I Am Afraid to Find Out

I expect i have had depression for a very long time. I don't want to find out, and  i don't want to admit to a real 3-d offline person that i am depressed, or tell them why. It would be too much shame to bear.

demonizd demonizd
31-35, M
6 Responses Feb 16, 2009

Oh, but depression is different from cancer, or any other non-mental ailment. It's a mental illness, and that colors how people see it. They either assume you're crazy, that you're weak and just give in to self pity, or else than you're just faking. Very few people see mental illness as a disease.<br />
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Doctors are better than your average Joe, but they're not perfect either.

This is one of my many problems, too. I couldn't imagine actually sitting face-to-face with a real human being and trying to explain all the things that go on inside my head.<br />
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I guess the best advice I can offer is just to remember that doctors are always professional in their response to any patient's problems - they can't tell you that you're wrong for feeling the way you do, and most importantly, they can't go and talk about you behind your back the moment you're out of the room.

Why do you fear seeking out help so much? I'm not saying you need to yell it from the roof tops, or even tell any one other then your Dr that your getting treatment. If you had cancer you would seek treatment I think, and depression is no diffrent then any other illness, it's not that your weak or flawed in some manner, your brain is just not producing what it need for you to feel ok. Asking for help can be hard, but that's what the Dr's who treat people with depression are trained for, they won't judge you. Many many people suffer from depression, and it's common thing. Don't suffer alone and not seek help, you can feel better with the right meds, and you don't even need to tell any one other then the Dr treating you.

I'm really not saying that being depressed is really a thing that should be shameful, it's just MY depression and ITs causes that I am totally unwilling to talk about in front of an offline person. but thanks, I appreciate what you're saying.

I have a problem with anxiety and depression and I have to take medicine for it. I'm not ashamed of it either because it something that apparently I can't help. Besides, they do make me feel better and help me function and deal with stuff. I actually refer to them as my "crazy pills" LOL.. I guess what I'm saying is don't feel bad about it.

That's part of the depression - not telling or seeking help. Believe me, there are many things you can do for depression. Don't sit there, suffering. Get up, call your doctor. Get treated - it will open up a new life for you.