Hello!

This is my personal story of living with schizophrenia:

I used to tell people "I have a bad brain."
I am not going to say I suffer from schizophrenia but rather I endure and cope with it.

My name is Amy Kay and I have schizophrenia. I do not want to hurt others or myself. Neither do I hear voices and I no longer live in a delusional world.

In 2008 during my initial psychiatric breakdown it started with a state of euphoria. I became very social and wanted to talk to everyone I came across! This was a sign that something was wrong. Normally I am very shy. As my brain disorder progressed I went to euphoric to delusional. I believed that I was Mother Earth. That I was responsible for taking all souls to heaven with me.

As my condition worsened I thought my best friend and my older brother were trying to poison me. I ran away from them until the police finally caught up with me. I ended up in the psychiatric ward for about five days. There I met God, Eve and the devil but that is another story.

Shortly thereafter my dad and step mom drop everything to rush to Orlando, Florida and get me. My closest friends help me pack up and say goodbye.

My parents drove me back to Mobile, Alabama to take care of me. When I arrived in Mobile I had no insurance and could not afford the medications.
About a month into my stay I began to suspect my stepmother was trying to harm me. I saw her walking around with a knife that she had used for gardening purposes. I ended up back in the psychiatric ward for two weeks.

After leaving the psychiatric ward I was put into a group home. I lived there for a few months. In the group home I received the medications I needed but I felt like I had lost all of my freedom! Once my medications were straightened out I went to live with my dad!

Today everyone tells me that I am handling my mental illness very well! Sometimes I feel depressed and I have trouble getting close to people. My thoughts can be disorganized. My memory is not always great. Even though I have this disorder I do more than just cope. I take my medications, receive counseling and have a good support system.

I control schizophrenia! It does not control me! Last summer I started a blog chronicling my life and how this condition slowly reared it's ugly head.

Life is difficult. Even more so with a brain disorder but having a fulfilling life is possible and I am living proof of it!

Since I have had my blog it has been published in four websites. My blog has been read in eleven different countries! In September I became a board member for Wings across Alabama. In October I became a certified NAMI “In Our Own Voice” Presenter. I have done about four presentations so far. My most recent one was for the nursing students at Springhill College. During late November I completed training to become a WRAP Facilitator. WRAP stands for Wellness Recovery Action Plan. I am currently setting up WRAP classes.

These are just my recent accomplishments. I have some big plans for the future!

I live independently. I share a home with my friend. I have my own car. I work a part-time job. I want to show the world that people with mental illnesses can live an independent high quality life and have unlimited possibilities!



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6 Responses Feb 10, 2015

Lovely! Keep up the great work! :) Add me?

Good for you! CONGRATULATIONS!! Really you have taken the lemons in your life and turned them into lemonade. You are helping so many people have faith in themselves and have hope for their future. Maybe you could at some stage think of writing a book about your life. :)

You know, I don't know you but I am so proud. I have a milder form of psychosis, and it starts much the same way, I start getting really euphoric and social. It's a great accomplishment how far you've come, im on a med now too that helps keep it under control.

Thank you for sharing ... I feel like I'm in a similar position ... 😊

Its a beautiful thing that your doing 😊

Good story. It's good to see you doing so well. Not everybody is as lucky as you. I realize that you got better through hard work and compliance but there is still an element of luck with who will get better with schizophrenia and who won't. I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia in 1980 when I was 19. So it's been 35 years that I have been living with it. I was very compliant too. I was in a locked psychiatric hospital for 8 months in 1981. It was no picnic but I survived. Most importantly I was put on medication, the key to my recovery. The first two years of my illness was severe. No hallucinations, but plenty of delusions. And paranoia. I was 20 years old and I had no job, no car, no sanity, no schooling, no friends, no girlfriend and no money. I spent the eighties in hospitals, psyche wards and group homes. I've been seeing psychiatrists for 34 years and therapists for most of that time too. I take my medications religiously. I'm 53 years old, and now I have my own car, a part-time job, I'm four classes away from my college degree. I'm for all intents and purposes debt-free which puts me ahead of 30% of Americans! I have lived independently since 1995 and I've been at my job for 5 years. I'm only a janitor but it pays relatively well, it's ten minutes from my house, and it's not too hard physically. My goal is to eventually get a job in a library as a library assistant until I retire. It's good that you are sharing your story, it will probably help and inspire some people. My life is not easy but it's not all bad either. I still suffer symptoms but as I get older, many of my symptoms are going away.You may have heard of this phenomena; I'm not the only one. I wish you good luck for the future. Keep fighting, the good fight.
Keep persevering!!

I really felt what you are saying ... Thanks for sharing ... And congratulations ... 😊

**** yeah! You go, I'm very happy and proud of you!!!