Tragedy & Abuse Activated My Hoarding
I was surprised to find out that hoarding is a form of obsesive compulsive disorder. It also can be from traumatic events or abuse- Mine is from both. I used to have a perfectly clean and non cluttered house and even my clothes were arranged in rainbow color order. My son got brain damaged playing baseball as a kid & that sent me into a deep depression, while that was going on my ex was extremely abusive- he even killed some of my pets (my pets are like a part of my family to me). He was also a very cheap louse and wouldn't even give me a quarter to buy a newspaper- that's what started my hoarding- I was so sick of having nothing for so long that when I finally got divorced and had my own money I just started collecting & buying all the stuff I was never allowed to buy or have all those years. I do clean, my place is clean but very cluttery. I got rid of 40% of my stuff in the last year but I have a ways to go yet. I did get counseling & now I can get rid of it, but my body is not healthy enough to do too much any more. I'm in constant pain & I just had 3 surgeries in 2 weeks time. So- now that I WANT to get rid of most of it I can't :( I'm on Drs orders not to lift or bend for 3 weeks! I couldn't bring myself to tell her why that was so upsetting to me.