What's Wrong With Me?
Hi, I'm new and I haven't really read anyone else's posts yet, so I'm not sure if I'm way off base, but I just need to talk to someone--so I hope it's okay to talk about my problems here. I titled my post "What's wrong with me?" because I don't think it should be this hard to clean a house. It's not rocket science--I'm a college graduate, surely I could figure this out, but I can't. I don't know if it's an issue of depression, childhood abuse, etc. I mean I have those issues too, but I don't understand why a messy house is a side effect of any of those things. Anyway, I really feel like a failure. I haven't taught any of my children how to help and now that they're teenagers--it just feels like more work than it's worth to get them to help. I know I feel badly about myself and so my house probably reflects that attitude, but also it just seems so pointless too. I feel like I can't get up the energy or ambition to care. I guess if my family likes living this way--I'll deal with it, but it is embarrassing when people come to the door. And, my kids can never have any friends over. I feel ashamed of myself for living this way, but like I said it also feels too overwhelming. Does anyone else feel this way? What do I do?