Almost The End

My mom was diagnosed stage 4 colon cancer that spread to some lymph nodes, some being around her heart and it was inoperable. So she started chemo and had a few ups and downs with that, well even though all scans and tests seem to be clear, the tumor has enlarged and the cancer has spread. The chemo didn't work at all. Within 3 days of finding this out she moved into a hospice facility, as of yesterday. I'm 18 and live with my 29 year old sister in our house. It's not paid off so well live here til the bank kicks us out and then well get an apartment or something. I'm still in my senior year of highschool and my grades are crap, although teachers have been very lenient with me. The thing is though, I've only cried a fee times since we found out the chemo didn't work, and that makes me feel like a *****, but honestly I've never been a cryer. My sisters hysterical but I'm just not, and sometimes people look at me as cold hearted for that. I feel sad but I don't cry.
lovemarilyn lovemarilyn
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 7, 2013

It may be that you are still dealing with it all. You will cry at some persstage. The best thing us to do your best at school and try and be the best person you can be. Make her proud.