I have a monster inside. It desires terrible things. When I am alone, or with people, it is asleep, or waiting. I'm not sure. It only gets to come out when I've drank too much or am under some substance's influence.
It wants me to hurt people...emotionally. It wants to push away everything I care about and everyone who cares about me, so that I will have no one but it left. I can't control it, but I can keep it locked away.
It wants sex. In all kinds of terrible ways. I do, too...that we share. And that is how I keep it at peace. I feed it sexual experience. Real or imagined, it matters not. As long as I do it frequently.
The monster wants terrible things. I keep it at bay by feeding it sexual experience. It calms the destructive impulse and carnal desires.