Promotion!!

I have been at my job for 5 months now, and it has been going really well. I have been talking to my Director about making my job full time instead of part time...and after several months and lots of discussion--as of tomorrow I am officially full time. With a change in job title which gave me an unexpected raise too!! I have a ton of duties and I feel up to the challenge. I was planning on moving as my son is in college now--but with this new position I guess I am staying in the area for a while. I feel so so about that to be honest--but in this economy to get a raise and a promotion ? -- it is not something to pass by.  It is always hard for me to feel good about anything for a long period of time. I have a tendency to find something to get sad about after a really good thing happens. It is almost as though I am afraid to just bask in sucess--like if I do it will go away or something. I just refuse to do that to myself today! I am a bit nervous as I want to do really well and succeed fully...but know what? The secret is that I am really brilliant and that I can do this job really well. I just need to remember that. Now all I have to do is continue to take care of myself as best as I can so that my bipolar disorder does not make me sick. But with this job, even if I got sick, I know that they would understand and I could take a couple weeks off and come back. Wow. I am 44 and I finally have a good job. Unbelievable ; )