My First Love.

He came back, 4 months later. I got a text one day from him saying the following:

"I just wanted to tell that I hope you are well, that I miss you and that I'm sorry for hurting you. I know you probably still hate me. If you don't want anything to do with me, you don't need to reply. It would probably be best. I hope we can be on good terms again in future. I wish you all the best in what lies ahead of you."

I didn't want anything to do with him at the time so I didn't reply to the message. Two days later I got a phone call from him. I did not answer. He called again twice after that and left a voicemail message, saying that he had something to tell me and that I should give him a missed call if I want to know about it. I was intrigued so I did, and he called me back.  He asked me if I was returning to college this year and I said yes. He then mentioned the thing he wanted to tell me about, and I assumed he was leaving the college because of his question. He said no, and said, "I have something to tell you, but I don't know how you're going to react..." I thought he was going to tell me about a new girlfriend. I wasn't interested, but let him talk anyway. I was wrong. He said (very nervously) that he was sorry for hurting me and still feels the same way about me as "the first time"; that he made mistakes and would like me to take him back and "have me back in his life", and that he still loves me. I cheated - I did not give him an answer. I wanted this to be a face-to-face matter, but I also did not want to confess so soon that I still love him too.

He called again today and asked me whether I had thought about his confession. I didn't give him the answer. I am honestly very confused about the entire situation - I thought he hated me. And I don't know if I can trust him again after what he did. But then again, people do change. I guess I just want to see for myself how much he has changed, if at all.
lntel lntel
2 Responses Jan 28, 2012

He should fight harder for you to prove himself; what he is doing isn't a patch against what a real man does when he is really in love.... A man who really loves you would fight for you until he can no more; until he doesn't put up a better fight to get you be assured that he isn't really interested - and Fear isn't an excuse; for true love knows no fear!

People can change, but rarely. Be filled with caution. If you love him, let your heart lead you to new places. Just realize that if you guard your heart, you won't know for sure. If you don't, he could hurt you again.