My Pantie PervBefore I expose the following about myself I'd like to set the stage. About 12 years ago and after 26 years in a sex starved marriage I moved out and on. For a few years I explored what I'd missed and I truly enjoyed the freedom to experience. I've had some serious relationships but my work has moved me around enough that serious relationships are difficult to build and maintain. Those who have looked at what I've put on here know that currently I am the Bull for a local couple. I've been in that relationship for over a year now I'm not about to go looking for a another of any type of relationship until that runs it's course. I can tell you that it looks after all my sexual needs.
So now my pantie fetish: I'm a visual person. I love pantie lines, and peeks of colour over the top of pants, through worn spots, and through that peekaboo gap in the legs of shorts. Understand that's pantie lines, not pantie ridges. Clothes that don't fit, just don't fit regardless of the fetish. So just what is my fetish? I want to see panties on women. I want to feel panties against my body with or without women in them. When I can feel those panties against my body that I've photographed the women in or been given to me to play with by the woman who owned them that's even better. Have I bought panties? Yes. Have I worn panties? Yes. Do I wear them daily, or even often? No. For me they are a treat I give myself when I want or need to escape into memories and images. Each pair has a history, and I revisit that history each time I take a pair of panties out of their bag. You see not all my panties are clean. Part of that history is smell and as much as I can replay events and pictures there is nothing quite like the rush of memory triggered by the unique and intimate smell of each person connected to me by her panties.
So how do I know it's a fetish and not just someone trying to relive past relationships? Because when I see a guy in panties, I get just as excited. I love the look of panties struggling to manage a man's genitals, as much as I enjoy seeing the curves and hollows of a woman in her panties.
Back in the 80's I had a photo studio and for those that lived the 80's you know that was before digital stills and video was still analog. If you had or wanted personal photos that labs wouldn't develop you either had a relationship with a local photographer or you used polaroid. (The instant picture of it's day but bloody expensive if you wanted to capture the evening in photos.) So in small town Canada there were a few people daring enough to risk exposure to approach me and ask for 'gift' photos for husband or wife. Not a lot but over the years there were opportunities to refine my craft.
The main point of it all was I developed the habit of looking at people differently (Yes my pantie fetish goes back a lot farther and deeper than that but I'm not ready for that level of exposure yet.) Okay I'm also a voyeur. I don't go out looking but I watch for situations that are, or could become, erotic. And believe you me that are a LOT of them around us. From innocent gusts of wind and worn button holes, to watching strangers on a bus allow themselves to sway with the motion against their neighbour, or as they realize they're providing a show of panties and either the legs snap shut or you can see the thighs tighten up as innocence gives way to a deliberate tease. What really excites me is when one of those leg snapping women, seconds after she reacts, changes her mind and deliberately returns to the position she was in. Only this time you know there is going to be a wet spot shortly appear in a delectable line down the center of that smooth inviting material.
But back to how I play it out. I haven't had the studio in over 20 years and film has given way to digital. Digital! The miraculous solution to people who want to enjoy private things privately. (lets just forget the internet and scumbags for the moment.) Digital means you don't have to allow someone else to process your photos and make judgments of consent and appropriate. And if you don't like the image you just took you take another, and another as you please. Gone is the day when you said goodbye to $2.50 on every click. Now experiment, play and discard what didn't work. Now when I have a woman or couple in front of me getting down to their intimates in a cozy setting I might take 150 to 250 images. Don't get too excited, you'll not get to see them They're not for me to share. If you know the women or the couple they might share with you, but for most it's about and between them. I just get to be the voyeur and to create images that excite me as well as them. Oh and if you're talking to someone about erotic photography, or boudoir (not **** sorry, enjoy it but don't shoot it) photos and he asks you if you've ever considered being photographed in your panties that just might be me! Or it could just be someone else with the same fetish.