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I Have a Place In My Heart For Broken People

Lost Souls...

By: Thatguy1970sDreamgirl
Written on March 1st, 2012
Age: 41-45 , Female
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    mejj

    God bless You and You be able to sustain Your compassion.
    __/|__

    Jan 16
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Thank you...compassion is necessary to human interaction, I believe. :)

      Jan 16
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    Wonderwoman3

    I've been lost many times over but always find away to rise above. I'm currently on a bottom that seems to have no end faith is all I have! I know from experience that you are right with everything you've said here and it's comforting to know there are others who share my desire to reach out to the lost generations who really need to be inspired. Thank you for sharing as every voice counts for something.

    Jul 4, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      i think staying positive and surrounding yourself with people that care is key to overcoming the pain in life. We all experience pain and hurt, some of us more than others. I am like you, no matter how horrible those experiences have been, I have always had a need to fight and never give up. I hope life gets better for you, take comfort in knowing you are not alone :)

      Jul 5, 2012
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    Inksplotch

    I understand what your saying and glad others feel the same way I was once what you call ''broken'' or ''lost'' I don't find the term broken wrong. I was broken still a little bit something inside of me was crushed and broken it made me hide and put up a wall . It was things people said people did and it drove me to feel empty. Since God healed me I have a heart for the ''broken ones'' I want to be there to tell them there's hope don't give up your not alone someone out there who loves you who can heal you like he did me and can take away those feelings that weigh you down and hurt you and rather you agree with me or not his name is Jesus.

    May 22, 2012
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    RickiChickie

    The world needs people like you.

    I try the same but sometimes it ends in dejection for me if I can't help or people dont let me.

    May 13, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Thank you so much Ricki :) I know what you mean, sometimes you try and try but people push you away. It happens quite often during the course of my work day. I simply keep trying, I won't give up easily. And, just being there for someone when the times comes is the best thing you can do. Thanks again for your comment!

      May 13, 2012
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    second2b

    It is true that we become broken by our life's encounters and get 'lost' along the way. It is good that we are compassionate enough to feel for the 'broken' people and empathize with them and vice versa. End of the day, the so called 'broken' people must come to realise that the degree of empathy and compassion have their limits which ought not be misused.

    May 1, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Thank you for your comments :) I agree with you.

      May 1, 2012
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      second2b

      A revisit to your post, I realized something which I had missed during my first reading. Happy for you and glad to learn that you "were" once a lost soul who "had been" there. Meaning, you have pulled yourself out of that situation and have the wisdom to move on instead of looking back. I share this kind of spirit that you possess and believe there is no point to cry over spilt milk and drag the happiness & life of others as well as your own down due to a past unpleasant encounter. Not everyone can do that though.... Cheers!

      May 2, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Thank you again :) Yes, you are right. It takes time and work, but it can be done.

      May 14, 2012
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    solobutterfly

    Yes should be renamed instead for the Lost Souls :)

    Apr 1, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Thank you...I think it's a more appropriate wording.

      Apr 1, 2012
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    igdos2

    Thank you for that. It really hepled me right now and I'm really glad I ran into that! <3

    Mar 19, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      You are very welcome!

      Mar 19, 2012
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    igdos2

    Thank you for that. Its just what I needed right now! <3

    Mar 19, 2012
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    lovelydaysandra

    i was terribly damaged in childhood and as a result i self constructed a prison in an attempt to keep me "alive" and safe. Then when I was twenty one, I read this quote. "Shame on your parents for what they did to you, shame on you if you stay that way". This was the opening of the prison door that then set me on the path of the " journey with a thousand steps". I have now lived 67 years and am about 789 steps along the path that is taking me back to my original unconditioned, undamaged, pure and natural self. I have at long last experienced "JOY". I am not a Joy-Full person but, I will not pass out of this world with out knowing what it feels like to experience joy. That has been my finest gift in life so far.

    Mar 12, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      I love that quote...very true! Thank you for sharing with me :) You have a wonderful outlook on life!

      Mar 19, 2012
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    chetnya

    I feel that life puts a test on us with different circumstances but when we couldn't handle it it get on different path and react differently, if at that point they been given proper guidance at that point is a real support we can offer.

    Mar 12, 2012
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    artemesia4u

    I find encouraged there are people that despite considering themselves lost souls they go on.

    Somehow despite setbacks they go on. OTOH most of us experience setbacks of one degree or another. I believe it can encouraging, sometimes crucially important to be there for each other.

    To remind the other person they are not alone. There is somebody who cares.

    I suspect one of the worst feelings is to feel there is nobody is there for them.

    I belong to a support group for a mood disorder. Don't want to name the support group for confidentiality reasons. There are constantly messages who write they want to kill themselves. How serious they are I don't know. I just feel every suicide threat should be taken seriously. Okay its trite here. "Better safe than sorry."

    Below is the last verse of blink182 "Adam's Song"

    "Tomorrow holds such better days

    Days when I could still feel alive

    When I can't wait to get outside

    The world is wide, the time goes by

    The tour is over I survived "

    It starts out , at least to me, extremely disturbing. Yet it ends with "The Tour is over I survived.. Know the group confessed that Adam of "Adam'sLetter" never existed. I deplore how the musicians played with the emotions of well meaning people. I so like how they tried to write a song of encouragement to those who most need it. Bottom Line. Perhaps the difference between between feeling like a lost soul and a soul whose lost forever is knowing someone cares. This I swear is true.

    Mar 11, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Although myself have never suffered from a mood disorder, I do sympathize with people that do. My son has and I have seen his suffering first hand. I work with teens and I know every threat we as a staff hear is taken seriously, I would rather overreact than not at all. I do believe what you say is true, it only takes one person coming forward and saying, " I care about you" to make a difference. Thank you for sharing!

      Mar 11, 2012
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    thenunn

    'Strong at the broken places'.it's the lost broken places that can give us our strength and our appreciation of this beautiful world and life that we have been given the chance to enjoy and share. Everyone has a painful,sad,destructive tale in their story,how else would we learn the lesson of those experiences otherwise. What matters is not so much what happened to us but how we deal with the aftermarth..do we choose to sink or swim, to carry on the circle that 'broke us' or break the circle and and go forth to enjoy . (this is not said to belittle anyones suffering or pain,it is said from my own experiences and viewpoint)

    may life be kind to you and all that you hope for x

    Mar 11, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      I agree with you 100% Life is what you make it, I wholeheartedly believe that. My own traumatic experiences have given me an inner strength and tenacity I may have never been blessed with otherwise. I appreciate what you said about not belittling anyone, I said much the same in a response to an ep member's negative comments towards me. I stand behind what I say and I do think we can choose to be happy. Thank you :)

      Mar 11, 2012
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    Rhiannon1962

    Lovely post. I have felt "broken" many times in my life. It is sad to see unhappy people. If only everyone had your attitude we humans might feel less alone and misunderstood. I just cannot understand people who get their "kicks" by hurting others. A friend of mine told me how she was so sad one time she nearly started crying on the bus because a woman showed her kindness! Imagine, she was moved to tears just because someone treated her like a human being! Which means that most don't treat their fellow humans very well and i have seen this again and again, in the workplace and in the family.

    Mar 11, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Exactly, treating people with kindness is necessary and can make a huge difference in their outlook on life. A smile, a hug or a simple touch can give someone the courage to move forward.

      Mar 11, 2012
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    contrast55

    Spot on, dreamgirl. I think those of us who have been through hell and back sometimes feel broken. I like to believe I use the hard times to be more compassionate and understanding of others. People need more understanding, more empathy, more kindness. I like you.

    Mar 11, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Thank you so much! I'm glad you enjoyed the post and that you understand where I am coming from :)

      Mar 11, 2012
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    android654

    Unfortunately some people aren't aware that their listlessness may be temporary. Some people are either doomed by themselves, circumstance, or a combination of the two, to be "broken" or lost for the remainder of their existence. It may sound bleak at first, but it's impossible to try and help everyone or think that everyone is capable of being helped.

    Mar 11, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      I think being capable of being helped depends on each person. I agree that you cannot help everyone. My point is that you have to help yourself first, before you can accept assistance from others.

      Mar 11, 2012
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    iamtoolovely

    "A person should not be too honest. Straight trees are cut first and Honest people are screwed first."

    i had some experience , but you know - my lover my first love she cheated me very dramatically

    before 4 years - and i havebeen used to call or tect her for her birthday only

    but i dont know do she remeber me or , what ever it might be , i believe she does not have luck to live with me LOLZ

    Let she go to her on way ,

    but WHY i cant even forget her .......................

    Mar 11, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      A lost love is difficult, but I believe people come into your life for a reason. You will find love again...best of luck :)

      Mar 11, 2012
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      iamtoolovely

      thank you dreamy girl
      tell me , how do we understand the mentality of girls ....
      why they are leaving their loved one to get a new one ??? is it my imaginational mistake or ..
      tell me . may be you can answer me

      Mar 15, 2012
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    bluejay2fly

    Good people are made from virtue but saints are made from faults.

    Mar 10, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      I love your quotes! Thank you again :)

      Mar 10, 2012
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      artemesia4u

      I couldn't find my post. Was it deleted? If so why?

      Mar 11, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Your post is still there, it's on the next page of comments.

      May 14, 2012
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    rob6585

    I agree that there is no need to call ourselves broken although we all are surely wounded in our life journeys. There's no way around that; getting wounded comes with the territory of living. First my parents who raised me tended to overprotect me, to shield me from hurts rather than trained me to become resilient to it. They did the best they knew how based on how they themselves had been reared. What are you going to do but take responsibility as whether you'll outgrow that or keep it? You can still honor your parents even if you decide to shed something they taught you which simply just doesn't work, doesn't help you grow. Then I learned to flee from difficulty in order to protect myself from getting wounded as if getting wounded were a telltale sign of human inferiority rather than just an evidence of paying the regular universal cost of living. As I've grown, I've learned the hard way to regard getting wounded as simply evidence that it's part of life itself and nothing more. It's certainly not something to dread as going to hell or regard as being cursed. Instead, I think we should regard our wounds as a challenge. It's how we respond to our wounds that define our character. And finally, cowardice is itself a contemptible curse. At the very least, a cowardly approach is a bad bad approach. Unfortunately, I plead guilty. I have been cowardly at times in my past which I hate to admit. Now I've learned to love and accept myself for my virtues and also my faults. The first step in transcending oneself begins with loving and accepting oneself for one's one virtues and faults. Condemnation from others and self condemnation never lead to repentence but instead to more cowardice on the part of the condemned.

    Mar 10, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      What you stated is very true. That is how I feel and why I wrote what I did. I think there are two types of people in this world...one group that takes their traumatic experiences and allows them to give them strength and uses that strength to overcome, and another group that tends to wallow in self pity and use it as a cop out for every unfortunate thing that has happened to them.

      Mar 10, 2012
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      openNhonest

      You have a very narrow view which still only relates to minor set backs, it does not deal with the broader issues.

      Not every person is damaged so slightlly that they can recover, there are those who's minds have been impacted on forever, whose abuse took place over 20 years; for those poor souls, recovery will be just as long, and when they finally feel strong enough to stand up, they'll discover they're so far behind, so absolutely alone, life will still be way too much for them to cope with.

      I wish people would tell their own stories, tell of their actual circumstances and how they handled their own situation, without then believing everyone can do what they did.
      To believe everyone is the same is to deny individuality, what works for one will be useless for another, everyone's circumstances are different, it's extremely unfair to throw a blanket of shame over those who's situations are as individual as they are.
      I think it's great some have recovered from their own personal problems, but they must accept, everyone is different, just as their particular problems are different, there is no one pill cures all for damage to a persons mind, end of story. Terms like "cop out" are insensitive and ignorant, they're a real put down, especially to people struggling with depression already.

      Show a little sensitivety.

      Mar 12, 2012
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    bluejay2fly

    "A man can be broken but not defeated"

    Mar 10, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      I love that quote :) Thank you!

      Mar 10, 2012
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    neha7

    screamed cried hide myself from social connections but still the pain is there in me in my dreams in my heart everywhere i just want to get rid dont knw i am a broken heart or broken person who dont have power to face challenges of life i want you back grandma i love u.....

    Mar 10, 2012
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    eman999

    Thank you Dreamgirl122. I bottomed out in my mid twenties. I knew it all, I ran from human connection.

    In my 30s, I broke down several times. It's like falling to pieces and one day waking up to know it is up to me to choose how to put things back together.

    Hitting 40 taught me to accept me in each moment, especially when I am low and challenged. That way I can make better choices for me and take charge of my vessel.

    Great to see all the comments here too. It helps.

    Mar 10, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Thank you, you understand what I am saying and I appreciate that. The comments are great, but a few people have lashed out at me and I don't think I was deserving of that. Thank you :)

      Mar 10, 2012
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    TherapyIs4TheWeak

    I'm the same way. When others hurt, I hurt.

    Mar 9, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      It's nice to know I am not the only one...thank you :)

      Mar 10, 2012
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      TherapyIs4TheWeak

      You're welcome :)

      Mar 13, 2012
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    mahmudtarik

    keep it up; it should be the way as you described.

    Mar 9, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Thanks :)

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    Desiderata7

    Working with the public i see some of the Broken/Lost people of our society. Some are so far gone in their misery they can not adjust to human society, living instead some sort of feral, self contained dejection. These I term Broken. Some have hidden wells of inner strength and can come back to us with a little help. These i term lost (but now are back!)

    I have had dealings with one man so miserable to deal with, who lashes out with hurtful derogatory comments with little to no provocation. Yet he manages to remain a functional part of society. I was so upset after a confrontation with him that a friend had to point out that I was not alone in not liking him. 'He is the most detested man in town', she said and of course that made me pity him. He must be so full of hurt and anger that he strikes out like a little boy. He is miserable because he is full of misery. I am normally a calm and understanding person, I have worked for years with the public and can take a lot from people. I understand people can have a bad day and their tone may not be polite, I can handle problems with our service, professionally and calmly, but this man pushes all my buttons. Very hard to be understanding! Is he Lost or Broken?

    Mar 9, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      I can imagine, I work with the public also...teens mainly but I also deal with their parents. It can be a challenge at times to remain friendly and positive with some of them because of their behavior. I try my best to give them my respect and hope that I get that in return. Often I do, others times it backfires but at least I know I have tried :) Thanks for your comment!

      Mar 9, 2012
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    blondemama

    I think there is a big difference between an unhappy person and a "broken person". I also think that truly broken people mostly appear to be happy on the outside. They have built walls around their pain and you never really know they are broken, unless you tear down those walls and/or they let you in. Those people who suffer silently are indeed broken. That doesn't mean they are horrible people; they usually are very kindhearted, caring, loving, and loyal people who carry their pain like a shameful secret; hiding it because maybe they fear judgement from others, maybe fear appearing "defective" to others, fear having to explain or somehow justify to others and being blamed... and all of that behaviour contributes, maintains, and increases their own suffering; which is such a very sad and lonely position to be in. Speaking as one of those people who struggle, I don't think the term broken is derogatory at all, I think it describes perfectly how I feel about myself.

    Its the only word that really grasps the depth of pain, the feeling of having complete knowledge that something separates you from everyone else, that something is wrong inside, and knowing that no matter what; it can never be fixed.



    Self acceptance- instead of trying to glue all the peices back together to get "fixed" - is the key. I'd rather be broken and realize it, accept it, and know that its not my fault ; its just a part of who I am; than to become totally shattered into a million shards of pain.by trying to hide it, or fix it, or deny it.



    hard to explain I guess.

    Mar 9, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      No, I understand what you mean. I agree self acceptance is key. Personally as someone who has struggled with some major traumatic events, I would rather not be called broken....I don't like the term. I think it has a negativity about it and despite my experiences I remain an eternal optimist and refuse to let it define me.

      Mar 9, 2012
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      blondemama

      I don't let it define me either, but its definitly a part of me, and I just accept it. Life goes on, and I will too- because even if its not so great at the moment, I hold onto the thought that it will get better. It always does get better; doesn't stay better..lol...but thats ok :)

      Mar 10, 2012
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    NonExistX

    Is it okay if I reccoment your story on another site I am a member of?

    Pretty much the point of the site is for people in pain to share their stories.

    My pain left long ago and I'm pretty much neutral now but I go there to share things I have never been able to with anyone offline and to encourage people, especially the youth on there whop are suffering.

    Mar 8, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Of course you may, I am flattered you would choose to :) Thank you

      Mar 8, 2012
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    openNhonest

    You speak of "Broken People" as if they're all people who have had an unfortunate moment they need to get over, but I have witnessed the breaking of human beings and it isn't as simple as you seem to feel.



    I grew up in a violent home where there was no affection, all we knew was abuse, be it violent or psychological, and I can assure you, for some, it creates a deep and ever lasting anger, people who do not know love, so they survive on hatred.



    I survived, in fact remarkably well, but my older and younger brothers were not like me, they didn't have my make up, as a result, they were deeply and psychologically damaged for life.



    How bad was my homelife? I watched my father shake my 10 year old sister to death when I was only 12 years old myself. Did I feel sorry for her? No way, I thoght she was lucky, in fact, I wished it was me who had died.



    There are many damaged and broken people who have endured decades of this kind of experience, those aren't people who should build bridges and get over it, they're broken, their damage cannot be repaired, it just goes on causing a snowballing of their problems, it doesn't get better, the only thing that will relieve the endless agony of a life like that, is death.



    Any kind of abuse of a child, be it psychological, sexual, or physical, is no worse than the other, the damage it does is for life.



    Anyone who damages a child in any way, should be removed from our society for their entire life, because those monsters through their abuse of children are doing nothing more than creating future monsters, or people so broken, they will never ever feel a part of our society..

    Mar 8, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      I don't speak of "broken people" as people who have had a bad experience in life. I am sorry you have had to endure what you have, but you should not judge me with out knowing me. I have been through an extremely abusive childhood myself. I chose a very long time ago to rise above that and I refuse to let it define me. I don't believe in blaming your experiences for your unhappiness or so called "damaged life." Life is a choice as is happiness and optimism. You can choose to wallow in self pity or you choose to live your life . I choose happiness.

      Mar 8, 2012
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      openNhonest

      There you go again, you have this view that everyone is in full control of their faculties when in fact, if you really understood the extent of some peoples treatment, and the resultant damage, you'd appreciate that everyone is different and everyones circumstances are different, therefore, just because you were lucky enough to retain a logical view, does not mean it's the same for others. Talk about your own experience and how you coped, but please don't show your ignorance by tossing a blanket of shame over those who weren't as lucky as you. The very fact you're able to "choose to be happy" shows you have no idea of what life is like for those who have lost that right and ability. Oh and if you'd read my post you'd have seen I spoke of others and how they were affected, I didn't complain about my own outcome in any way, other than to say I came out of it remarkably well, hardly me being negative.

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      blondemama

      you "rose above it" and "chose happiness" . Do you know how many people you have hurt by saying those words? As if others who have had experiences and are suffering from them are somehow less of a person than you? That they couldn't "rise above it"- whatever the hell that means; (ignoring it, pretending it didn't happen comes to mind)? That the hurt they feel now is a CHOICE???
      Are you ******* kidding me??
      The fact that you can say something that cruel, shows me that you are broken. You are lacking in compassion and empathy towards others, you're placing blame on the victim- how can you do that?? If that is what you mean by how you "rose above it"; you're just fooling yourself.

      Mar 9, 2012
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      openNhonest

      Well said blondemama. I have two sibling who grew up in the very same environment, each of them have been unable to recover, I consider myself very lucky to have come out of that environment as well as I have, but it had nothing to do with me, I was just lucky it didn't affect me in the same way as it did my sibblings. Your post says it like it is. congratulations.

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      BeingStalked

      To what extent we are discussing our own "brokenness" we see it as a wound that needs tending and compassion. To the extent we discuss other who hurt us, we see is as a permanent characteristic.
      It's good to see yourself as someone who can heal and grow.
      It's also healthy to see someone who is hurting you as someone you have to eliminate from your life to keep them from hurting you further.
      The truth of the matter is that whatever healing we are to experience will be through our own hard work.
      And hard work, yes, begins with the hard decision to take complete responsibility for your own happiness.
      That means that, yes, my step dad is going to hell for what he did to me and my sister, but I CHOSE not to stay in hell for what he did, and my sister lets the hatred eat her alive, give her health problems and.........***tada... my point****
      TURN HER INTO AN ABUSIVE MOTHER.
      We can rest on our laurels and blame our unhappiness on others all we want. But until we forgive, and let go.... all we are is what was done to us.
      You can lay down, spread yer legs, and keep letting it happen to you, or you can decide you will be the person you were meant to be. Otherwise, most people end up perpetuating the same abuse on other innocents.
      Just because I was abused and neglected doesn't mean I will do that to others. But as long as I am blaming, I can't see what I AM DOING.
      Maybe there is a certain amount of the "nature" "nurture" philisophical discussion some want to get into.
      That isn't the point.
      When it's me personally, I am harsh. There will be nothing left but strength from my wounds.
      When it's someone else, they have my sympathy and understanding, I''m willing to give them the benefit of the doubt.

      I see a lot of what openNhonest is saying has to do with the same holding oneself to a higher standard, and giving others the benefit of the doubt without judgment.

      AND yes how you feel IS a choice.
      They did it to you years ago, you are doing it to yourself now.

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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      I am not placing blame on anyone at all. It seems to me you are the one judging someone else. You ahve no idea what my experiences have been and nor do I know yours. I do choose to be happy and that is MY choice. You have to decide that for yourself. I think you need to grow up and be adult and deal with it. Bad things happen and you can choose to let it rule your life or you can choose to overcome it.

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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Again, you are judging someone you don't know. You don't what I have been through anymore than I know your experiences. You don't have that right to pass judgement on people. I do choose to be happy and that is MY choice. I will never choose the self pity route. My experiences have made me stronger, I have accepted and dealt with tmy pain. It would seem from some of the posts on this story that many have not. I am not an angry person and I wont be baited or criticized by you or anyone else.

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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      It is quite the opposite, I have compassion and empathy...but I have less for people who use it as a crutch and let it define and take over their lives. It doesn't have to be that way. I am not cruel and this story was not directed at anyone in particular. I don't sugar coat words, life is hard and we all must learn to live to the best of our ability. Yes, I did rise above it. I dealt with it long ago because I refused to let it affect me any longer.

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      romanticdreams

      Well said Dream, thank you for sharing that, we do have choices in life and through the difficulties you have come through, a beautiful person has emerged, despite a difficult life

      Mar 10, 2012
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      openNhonest

      For someone who claims to have so many choices, how about choosing to think of the hurt you're causing those who are still struggling with their problems instead of condemming them because they weren't as lucky as you. You make some shocking statements, they're so insensitive, you seem to be harbouring a huge amount of anger and contempt, and you're cowardly kicking those who are down. Get over yourself, you're offensive.

      Mar 12, 2012
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    txangel1019

    I am all about helping others. In he end i am the one to need help but that is soooo much easier to tell strangers than it is a friend or someone close to me. i guess u can say Im broken but through it all i spend.my time helping others. Pay it.forward. ....

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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Very true, sometimes helping others helps yourself :)

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    carollynd

    I love your post. I don't think I could have said it better. Thank you for sharing your insight.

    Mar 7, 2012
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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Thank you so much for the compliment!

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    ss2012

    I agree, we all get lost at some point in our lives. Its finding your moment, your soul, something that makes you feel good. Looking on the inside and finding that which makes you feel content on where you are. I have been on a soul searching journey for a while now and have found that the only person that can make me happy is ME. Then spreading my happiness, being kind, compassionate, patient, loving comes naturally. I look for inspiration everyday, its what keeps me going, makes my heart full and helps me heal. Having a lost soul is difficult, but when you start finding yourself, you will know and feel it :)

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      Thatguy1970sDreamgirl

      Thank you :) I agree with you, you touched on worthwhile points, I wish every one felt the way you do.

      Mar 7, 2012
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