Deep Urge For Pregnancy

I crave having my womb filled with life as it swells the more babies in me the better I enjoy it so much I fake it out of need I wear a fake belly sometimes and have toy dolls inserted in me while laying on an exam table my ex use to insert them in me tie my legs closed and make me wait while pain would flood me as if I was in labor after I would beg I need to push he would untie me finger my full ***** to tell me I was dialted sometimes he would tell me not yet and stuff either his **** in me or an old internal sonogram probe just to see me swell in pain ready to give birth usually he would then lay me flat put my legs straight up in stirrups and take forceps to help me push and deliever my babies other times he would insert it breech or turn it almost sideways were he would stretch my ***** wide as he would reach in to turn it then make me slowly push it out of my ***** it is an amazing feeling I also do this alone pretending I am home birthing while I watch it strtch my *****