"I have a relationship with a married man"
I met and feel in love with a married man over a year ago. It was at a time in my life when I felt I needed someone with whom I could relate to. He told me early on that he was married but still I accepted his invitation for lunch a few days later. After being married myself for 22yrs and dumped for a younger woman I had very low self-esteem. So I guess the first guy that showed me some attention made me feel wanted again! He never spent over an hour a day with me and if we had sex he maybe stayed longer. He began to make excuses as to why he had to leave but I was blinded by love. He expressed that he love me and I believed him. The sex was great, however the relationship was not based on sex. We communicated well together and I really enjoyed that. But for some reason my conscious started to bother me more and more. Although he called me twice a day I started to make excuses or just wouldn't answer the phone when he called. Finally one day we had an argument it escalated and I told him that I wanted more and he said to me I told you that I would never leave my wife because we have invested too much together and that they were friends sharing separate rooms! (LOL) Hearing him say that really hit me like a ton of bricks!I told him that I wouldn't be a FOOL anymore and he just said well if you ever want to call me you can! I cried but somehow was relieved because of morality. However, he says he still loves me. At this point I don't know how I really feel I am trying to move on with my life but there will be good days and bad days. Wish I knew how to cope with this so that I can move on with my life. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.