Torn

I know your fine, but what about me? You left me with pain as deep as the sea, I feel trapped in this anguish I just want to break free, I wish you could comprehend the half of what you did to me. 

You took my heart and broke it and left me with a scar, years have passed I thought I've moved on but I always wonder where you are. 

I try my best to keep you out of my mind but in my dreams your there, I see your face or hear about you, you seem fine it's just not fair.. 

No one has replaced you, but you had no problem replacing me, the things you said , I can't believe your feelings are dead, I was the one, you said it your self, you couldn't be beside me through sickness and health.. 

As much as I resent you, I try to convince my self it's not my fault, I know it's my pain that pushed you away , I would have done any thing to get you to stay. 

I've tried to let go, I just want you to know, I don't want to hold on, but my love for you was too strong, the reasons why I miss you, the list goes on and on. How could I still miss you after all you put me through, I'm torn, in so torn I dont know what to do. 

When I lay awake at night and your running through my mind , I wonder if I'll ever let go, and not want you in my life, I wonder if I'll ever find another that I will love like i loved you, I try to believe I will but I can't believe it to be true. 
Ewalkerc Ewalkerc
22-25, F
1 Response May 13, 2012

After two heartbreaks in my life (I am 42) I thought too that recovery would be long term. It lasted as long as I met my wife when I was 27. I still think about my past loves and what they meant to me at the time. I have no doubt I was in love - and very much so, but time will not heal me completely and I'm sure my memories will be with me forever but time does erase a lot especially when you find someone to fill the void. I think that song 'The Dance' by Garth Brooks sums it all up nicely.....'Our lives are better left to chance - I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance....' All the best.