Why does it still feel so painful? We have been broken up for about six months already and it still feels as if it was just yesterday. I can't take it anymore. I want to rip out the pain. I hate feeling so vulnerable. I hate dedicating most of my day to thinking about him. It sucks!
He has a new girl and the worst thing is that she is my coworker. After she found out that she is dating my ex, instead of putting some distance between her and I, she actually looks for me and tries to have conversations with me. It's as if she is trying to get to know me better. Why is she doing this?
Around this time last year we met. I miss him. I miss him. I miss him.
I know what people will say is you can do better, give it time, he doesn't deserve you, you are too good for him, you will find someone who truly loves you, etc. But why if all this is true must I feel this pain that consumes me and knocks me down to my knees? I wish the pain was physical and that you could cure it with medicine, but it is not. He is hurting my thoughts, my ideas, my memories, he is in my head.
How much longer will it take to rip him out of my life completely!!!!!!!!! I want to stop crying over him and hate him instead.
Is anyone going through the same thing? Message me if you are... :(
He asked me to move in with him and I said no and I think about that decision every day of my life. If I didn't want the life he was offering me and all the things he had done to me invaded my head when I was with him I should be able to let him go, right? Then why can't I? I am sad, frustrated, hurt. What if I made the wrong decision. My parents hate him and I know what he did to me was something he shouldn't have done, but he regret it and asked for my hand and I said no. Why does this haunt me. He is happy with someone else now. I need to let it go, but someone tell me how?
Please. Does anyone have the answer to this. I guess they were right to say we hurt as hard as we love.