I have a scar. His name is AP, well that's not his real name, but that's what he's called. He was my first love. He was my first everything. He was my best friend, my mentor, my personal comedian. He was the sunshine to my rain. Now it's just me and it's not the loss of him that has scarred me as one might think. It was him in general. His ways, his anger, his violence, his hate. I don't understand how you can view someone as amazing and perfect and be so sure of this, then you blink and realize the whole time your angel was indeed a demon. How does this happen? How or what blinded me for all these years? I don't know if I'll ever know. What I do know is that I have a scar and his name is AP

HesitantlyHopeful HesitantlyHopeful
18-21, F
4 Responses Mar 13, 2010

I believe you're probably right he's a bad person I guess love blinds you

I am still inclined to think there is more to him than bipolarity, as I know a girl who is bipolar and she is a very gentle person. I may be wrong though.

Well he's diagnosed with severe bipolar dissorder but he is insane I sort of hate him for what he put me through

An angel that turns out to be a demon sounds a lot like a sociopath