Does That Surprise You???
My secret is that I used to be a cutter and I still do sometimes. The only person that knows is my husband. Most of you know my history and pains from my childhood. I cut to relieve the mental agnoies of the rape, abuse, and neglect I endured during my child years. There is something about physical pain that takes away the mental pain for a while.

Im in no way happy I had that problem. Every once in a while I have relapses and I may cut, but my husband has been a great supporter in helping me heal. Including attending my therapy sessions with me to try and understand and learn about my disorder.

Its been a few months since I last did it. Ive got to learn and believe that I need to stop self destructing. I know I am loved, but the past has a way of scarring you more than anything.

I was very scared to write this story, but at the same time I want to help someone else who may be reading this to know that they are not alone and that you shouldnt be afraid to get help....you shouldnt be ashamed either.

To all my followers....Im sure I have succeeded in shocking the hell out of you. Have I?
Blackbarbie27 Blackbarbie27
26-30, F
Aug 23, 2014