Tired Of Life

I am so lost with my life right now. I live with my beautiful children and fiance, but I feel like I'm dying on the inside. I work hard and follow all the rules and still get stepped on and pushed further and further down. I feel like no matter what I do I am cursed to live a life in hardship. I barely have enough money to get my children the necessities like diapers and milk. I'm going to loose my house, my car, everything I own, and if that happens I'm afraid I will loose my kids and the one man I will ever truly love. not because he will leave me but because I will be lost to myself forever. I am fighting to survive right now and I am getting nowhere. I wish I could hit the jackpot than I could pay off student loans to go back to school cause I cant even do that anymore without paying off old ones. however I cant even afford the lottery ticket. Ironic huh how life works its charm on you. I have to go back to taking care of things in my life. I just needed to get it out of me. all this pain. Or at least a little bit of it. everyone have a good night and a happy new year.
tigerlilly1888 tigerlilly1888
26-30, F
1 Response Jan 6, 2013

I was once at my wit's end. I didn't know what was going to happen to me financially or with my husband (I had gambled away all our inherited money from his father...lots and lots of it...enough to let us not work for the rest of our lives). You survive and go on and learn things about yourself. You hope that that's why you were born: just to learn a lesson about yourself.