Tired Of Life
I am so lost with my life right now. I live with my beautiful children and fiance, but I feel like I'm dying on the inside. I work hard and follow all the rules and still get stepped on and pushed further and further down. I feel like no matter what I do I am cursed to live a life in hardship. I barely have enough money to get my children the necessities like diapers and milk. I'm going to loose my house, my car, everything I own, and if that happens I'm afraid I will loose my kids and the one man I will ever truly love. not because he will leave me but because I will be lost to myself forever. I am fighting to survive right now and I am getting nowhere. I wish I could hit the jackpot than I could pay off student loans to go back to school cause I cant even do that anymore without paying off old ones. however I cant even afford the lottery ticket. Ironic huh how life works its charm on you. I have to go back to taking care of things in my life. I just needed to get it out of me. all this pain. Or at least a little bit of it. everyone have a good night and a happy new year.