I Still Hold A Candle For My First Real Love.
I still can't shake her. It is weird. I know there will never be another opportunity, that ship set sale way too long ago. It is actually probably unhealthy that I still feel this way. But we can't always help the way we feel. Often it is, simply, what it is.
I don't think about her daily or anything like that... but whenever I think of that more "long haul," I always think of her. I don't like to talk about it because I feel stupid more than anything else. Who really holds on to such sentiment for someone that they had a relationship with when I wasn't more 15 some-odd years old.
Then again, it is what it is. And I guess, if this is what I am stuck with in terms of feeling, I still wouldn't trade it for what it was (back then).