Guilt

I am a very awkward person at best, and i find it hard to tell people that i love them.

 i lost my Grampy to cancer 57 days ago, and my Auntie 42 days ago. it may seem small compared to what some people have been through, although i feel a crushing guilt that i did not tell either of them i loved them or huged them before it was too late.

I try to tell my friends, but i cant. i don't know what they would do anyway, as no one can make this better so in a way i am glad i cant tell them for the tears when i think of it. the only other thing is that i cant bring myself to tell my parents, when i know that they could get me help. i just dont want them to be dissapointed in me, for feeling like this when i dont know if i should.

i just hope they knew i loved them before they went.

Vengeance6661 Vengeance6661
18-21, F
Feb 24, 2010