Fear Of Death Is Driving Me CrazyHello Everyone,
I guess I will start off by saying my fear of death started as a child. Any time I think of it, of what happens after (do I just disappear? Everyone I love?) I have a panic attack. Just typing this is unsetting me. As a child I talked to my father and he settled my fears by promising to be there waiting for me in the after life. He passed away when I was 22 and in my heart I am still holding him to his promise!
Now I am almost 39 and the youngest of my family, my mother will be turning 70, my brothers 49 and 42. Time seems to be flying by so fast and it seems that there is so few years left to us ><. I know this sounds illogical but I cant help it. Most of the time I am fine and then something click and Im pacing back and forth across the floor just about to come out of my skin in fear.
I dont know who to talk to, because I really feel like Im going crazy. My family is not very religious I believe that there is more than this (life) but Im not sure and no one can prove it to me. This fear is starting to interfer with my life, lately I have been having a bit of chest pain which I am 98 percent sure it is from my diet lately and stress but I am having a hard time falling a sleep this last week. The stupid thought that Im going to die in my sleep keeps going through my head and if I did what will happen to my mother and brothers? Who would find my body ect ect. Even right now it is almost midnight and here I am.
Does any one have any suggestions how I can coop with this fear? Please understand that saying trust in god is not going to help me.