Ever since I was about 10 or 11 I've had a very frightening fear of death. When I was younger I used to obsess about being buried - not because I worried about being buried alive but because I couldn't understand what happened and where I went, that thought still terrifies me and I'm now 28 years old!
I quite often (every day) find myself thinking what's the point of everything I do - not because I'm suicidal but because we as people we form relationships, we strive to succeed and for what? We die and have no recollection of anything - anything we've ever seen or done, anyone we've ever met or loved is forgotten.
I've felt like this form over half of my life, I'm not after a mircle cure - just something that will stop my heart from pounding 90 to te dozen every time I think about it...Or even just to hear from someone who feels the same so I don't feel so odd!