Never Coming Home?

I just had an update at the nursing home my wife is living at, I thought temporarily, and found out she is so ill she will never be able to come home. :(  Just got off the respirator a few weeks ago but they cant remove the trake tube.  She can't get up out of bed.  And shes lost about 1/3 of her mental facilities. 

All this form a combination of Lupus, smoking and allot to do with the fire she started in our house with oxygen and cigarettes.

I dont know how to feel.  I've already grieved when she had a few seizures and many health complications three years ago.  Then after the fire didn't even think she was goign to make it. 

So now no mom for my 12 year old not to mention no spuse and a boat load of fiancial issues.  Well at least we're moving back to our firehouse this Saturday (thats what I refer to my hosue as the one we left temporarily).  Thats my life could be worse I guess.
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1 Response Apr 23, 2012

I think i read your story some time back. You were thinking of leaving your wife right? I made a comment about it and you said you'll have a think about it. You remember what it was I said?

Yea. Leaving someone is a big change, which is why its so scary. Any change is scary. We're too comfortable with the now, even if it makes us miserable. And your conscious probably wont rest well if you leave a sick wife, even if she did some bad stuff in the past.

Its all up to you. Ultimately the goal in life is to have no regrets in the end. Think about that when you make your decision.... and can feel like a very long time if you're miserable