I Present Different Sides to Different People.

There is an unconventional side of me that is not appropriate to divulge to certain people. I have to be careful which foot I put forward because people are often quick to judge and gossip. I can't change who I am and what I have done in the past so I just have to deal with it. I have different friends for different occasions. Each of them know different things about me but no-one knows the whole me. My life is very compartmentalised like that. I don't like having secrets from people and hiding things. It makes me feel like I am living a double life. But that's the way it has to be.
Louey Louey
31-35, F
6 Responses Nov 4, 2007

I know what you mean....I have a different personality that comes out around every one in my life, and I am not talking schizophrenia or anything like that, I just behave differently around everyone in my life, I am not the same person with anyone, it is just natural to do, but how it started I don't, but I disagree with the person who said we all lead double lives, I know many people who don't change at all no matter who they are around...and I am not changing to fit in with anyone

Yeah everyone has their mask.<br />
For some friendship groups it's just the barest little bit of shading (if ur very fortunate) yet for others it's like a clown suit. It might b suitable to re-assess ur needs and desires from ur current group of friends / associates

Most people who are employed seem to enjoy compartmentalising their lives and keeping their work colleagues and family/friends seperate. There are things they share with their work colleagues (such as maybe a filthy sense of humour) that they would never take home. And vice versa.

I know people who don't live a double life (that I know about!). Everything about them is laid bare on the table because they are intrinsically well behaved follow-all-the-rules type of people with nothing dark to hide. All their friends mix with each other and are one big happy family. I wish I could be like that.

we all live the double life, it's just part of wanting to be accepted

I think we all do this so some extent.