My Sister Has Anorexia

My sister and I are only three years apart. Our birthdays are around the same time and everything. Only ten days apart. We grew up doing everything together. And even though I am one of five, we always had this special bond. We were so close.

She developed bulimia almost three years ago. But she said she would change and we let it be, didn't take her anywhere or anything. We were just really careful to make sure that she stopped. And she did. But then it just developed into something else. It became anorexia. We confronted her about it maybe a half a year ago. It had gotten too bad. She loves soccer and she couldn't even run for more than 30 seconds at a time. She's 14 years old and weighed less than 100 pounds. It was to the point where we couldn't ignore it. We had avoided it before because she got really moody and angry all the time. She stopped talking to me. She wouldn't even look at us anymore. She avoided all of us, so it was hard to know what was going on until she couldn't even play a full game. We started taking her to a doctor and a psychologist. She refused to even speak, and everything just got worse. She's been losing even more weight and she started going to a bigger hospital, sort of like the medical mecca of our state. It's been once a week, every week. We thought she was getting better, but she recently crashed again and is doing even worse than before. I graduated yesterday from high school and I found out today that she's not going to be at my graduation party on Saturday. I'm getting married in a couple years and she might not be there to be my maid of honor. I don't want her to leave my life. I don't want her to die. I just don't know what to do. She never talks to me anymore. I made dinner tonight and she won't eat it. We're going to have to stop her from playing soccer, one of the only things she loves, to save her life. I just want to be there for her. But I don't know how. I feel so helpless.
RivaDeperro RivaDeperro
18-21, F
1 Response May 21, 2012

I feel your pain so badly. My 31year old sister has had an eating disorder for a decade and it is destroying her life. I feel so helpless and frightened for her. I feel like I am carrying round a deep sadness that will never go away. I am thinking of you and all others affected by this horrible disease.