In Need Of Some Much Needed Help!!Stressed beyond belief, with little time, and some much needed support, i have no idea what to do and am in need for some advice from the people that i know will understand...
So my boyfriend of 2 years graduates from BCT on may 12th, and wants me to be there and i would love to go!
But that week is crazy for me, as im still in school. And also money is tight. the cheapest i can find is around $700 a person and im on a very strict budget, cant go by myself because i am still a minor,so my mother would go to.
On top of all this i just found out today that his parents are going, which i am glad that they are finally supporting him in something, but after he left for BCT his mother sent me a nasty text message telling me to stay away and that they do not approve of us being together.
I dont know what to do. I feel like I have to go to his graduation. That if I dont then he will be upset, and break it off with me. And it doesnt help that some of our "friends" have told me that after BCT he wont want me around with all the girls that will be after him and the distance that will be between us.
And I dont know what to think on that, the last letter i recieved was four pages long, of which 2 pages he talked to me about our future together and that a proposal is near. Which has also made me feel like he will be doing at BCT graduation... just a feeling. And if im not there is that like saying no??
And every single letter i have sent him has gotten sent back to me (i write him daily, approximately 28 letters), and when he was able to call during white phase he was crying because he thought that i left him, or couldnt take the distance and lack of communication.
I dont know if marriage is right for us right now(I am 17 &he is 19) and i am still in high school. how do i tell him that, and when? I am giving up so much for him, my Jr. prom, social life, and high school experiences, along with people i thought were "friends", but i know that its all worth it. After 2 and a half years together and 2 breaks later, i know that i want my life to be spent with him, that i want to be 90 in a rocking chair watching our family(we want a big one) grow, and that i love him and would do anything to make him happy. But when do i know that my sacrfices are going to be worth it. If his family doesnt approve of us, and he doesnt care, should i really be bothered by it? should it be a sign that maybe we wont work out? His parents ended in divorce, and so did mine, i dont want that to be us. and i wouldnt want to put our future family through that same pain.
I am so stressed, scared, hurt, and depressed. my grades are falling, my health is going down, im becoming anti-social, and just giving up. I havent heard from him in a week, and i know thats really nothing considering many of you have husbands deployed overseas and I'm truley sorry if this bothers you, but everything is just getting to me and i am so confused and lost at what to do, and i feel like noone really understands. Please HELP me.