The After Effects...Today is Day 2 of my boyfriend leaving for basic and also not hearing or talking to my boyfriend for the first time ever.
I finally feel the after effects of him walking out of my arms and walking towards his future.
I've never really felt this lonely, I miss him. I can't help but to think about how he is, what he's up to, or if he miss me just as much, and is worrying just as much as me. But I doubt he'd be worried, he's got alot to focus on right now. I keep focusing on our future and how happy I'm gonna be when I see him at graduation. I just wish that he'd be able to at least call once a day or every other day. Or at least get some reassurance that I'd hear from him soon. But for now, I gotta play the waiting game, and write him letters. I still randomly feel like cry because it's still fresh in my mind that he left 2 days ago. But I promise him I'd be strong and find ways to occupy my time and make friends in the process... It's hard. I just miss him.. but gotta keep my head up high, stay strong... and remember that my ArmyBoy loves me just as much as I love him.... I know it'll take a while for me to get use to this.. but I'm trying my hardest.
tiffval14 18-21, F 4 Responses 0 Jan 10, 2013