I Am Scared To Reach The Top And Wake Up Alone...

I am a healthy woman with a strong sense of self and an ongoing thirst to accompish myself and reach my full potential. I work in real estate - project sales - and also devote my "off time" to my marketing company and found that my gratification and self-esteem is very much dependent on the health of my career. For almost 2 years now, I have been in an amazing relationship with a wonderful and loving man who, as a professionnal athlete, has his own personnal goals and works towards them as hard as I do which I think is essentiel...

I am where i want to be in my life and quite pleased with my situation but I constantly seek "more and better" things and my nature is quite evidently to push, work, and learn... The line between "I want to grow and be better" and "I am never content or satisfied" sometimes gets blurred. I am scared I might wake up and feel like I lost sight of the important things in life by being so focused on the future - the "what's next!?".

I make it a point to have a least one social activity a week (I am part of a senior basketball league) but I am a little bit concerned because our circle of friends consists of 1 person, maybe 2... I mean I see my best friend 3-5 times a year! I must say we do see our families every weekend though.

Why am I writing all this on this blog? I'm not sure... I know very well that not everyone has the same lifestyle or the same needs, and that there is no "right way" to live your life but I guess I was curious to see if others relate to what I've expressed...
AnniePier AnniePier
22-25, F
Jul 14, 2010