i was diagnosed with a (then) non-operable brain tumor in 2001 and was told I had less than a 50% to survive the next 5 years. it's been 10 years now since the diagnosis and i should be happy to be alive, but i'm not. I've had at least 4 surgeries and radiotherapy and most days I fight to keep my sanity. i experience simple partial seizures daily despite taking medication against it - i worry every time that the tumor is active and hungrily eating into yet another part of my brain, taking my being away bit by bit (i'm missing most of my right temporal and frontal lobes and it's starting to grow into the motor cortex so I can expect the seizures to get worse). I get checked over by MRI once every 3 months, next one is Aug 5 - the last one was in April and showed no new growth following radiation, but if i'd known how bad the radiation + drugs (decadron) would've been I might not have elected for it. it took me close to a year to get over the side effects and during that time i turned 40 and got the statement " I want a divorce' as a birthday present from my wife. SO it's been a hard ride. the only thing that keeps me going on a regular basis is that I've 2 boys (9 & 11 y.o) to take care of while their mom is working. So long as I've something to do during the day I seem to be ok, it's in the evenings after the kids are in bed and I'm basically by myself. maybe I should be posting this in a depression group instead - I don't know. anyways, that's my sad little story.