As apart of trying to ease this fear I am no longer allowing myself to "bleep" out the word blood. I will type it and look at it. Unfortunately, my phobia isn't something like, "Oh no! I just saw a spider, HONEYYYYYY!"
I wish it were that simple. I can hardly leave my room all day out of fear. I am afraid to touch paper and books, even. If I think I am bleeding, I have a panic attack. If I am bleeding, then it is hell. I have to lay down to prevent fainting. I go through about one hour of sheer terror each time.
I was already agoraphobic, but doing good with it. Now, I can't leave the house AT ALL because I fear I'll get cut while I'm at and won't have anywhere to go calm down at. Christmas is in two weeks and I'm freaking out bad because I've got to load these bikes I bought my brotheres and sister and take them to their house. Then, I've got to spend the night there. If I have an "incident" I have no where to go breathe and get calm.
Both of my phobias: Agoraphobia and Hemophobia, are from my fear of fainting. Whatever that is called. Basically, I have had some traumatic fainting experiences in public, and at home. Either due to bleeding, or sometimes for no reason at all. So, my life is controlled by phobias that won't go away. I can't even eat because I know from past experience that if I bleed right after eating, I have fainted. So I try not to eat.