I've wrote a few stories briefly explaining some of the abuse I dealt with as a child, I guess it's time to talk about the flashbacks and triggers. My flashbacks can be so real, so graphic, they cause tunnel vision and take me to my knees. I can most times feel the same feelings I had when these things first occurred. I can feel the pain, hear the sounds, recall the words.
Triggers can be as small as hearing a car door slam, a glass break, a horn on a kids bike. So many things trigger different responses in my mind. I heard a little girl scream the other day and it paralyzed me where I stood. It took me back to a day when I was 6 years old, I remember where I was, what I was doing and what happened next. Clear as day, all the sounds, the yelling, the pain, the blood and the senseless man on top of me.
Some people think flashbacks don't happen, they are delusional. Flashbacks are a major part of millions of peoples lives.
The best way I've found to deal, is to breathe deeply, try to think of happier things, and stay grounded.
If anyone has any suggestions on how to get through these, please contact me. They last sometimes from 5 minutes to hours.