Numb

For the past three years I've been struggling with terrible kidney infections. The pain is something I can't describe. It controls my whole body.
I started hanging out with the wrong crowd, and started getting into drugs. Ex was my favorite. I went to a rave and rolled there, and the next morning woke up with the worst pain. I had some left over, so I decided to go right back up. rolling took all my pain away, I felt numb. So what did I do? I rolled everyday, for two weeks straight. The whole time I did that to myself, I had a kidney infection that was just getting worse and worse, and I didn't know it. I couldn't feel ANY pain. Finally I ran out of money, which meant I ran out of my supply. The first day I started to come down, I landed my *** in the emergency room. All the pain came back at once, and it was BAD. The doctor said I looked terrible and that he hadn't seen a kidney infection that bad in all his years of practice. He was surprised that I had been able to handle that pain for so long. I wasn't. In those two weeks I lost 11 pounds, I'm 5'8 and I only weighed 115 before I did this to myself. Its been a little over two months now since all that happened. I havent been able to gain my weight back. All it took was two weeks of using and abusing to do this to myself.
I haven't felt healthy since.
AmandaLynn0726 AmandaLynn0726
18-21, F
May 18, 2012