Everyday Is A Battle

I am 40 years old, married with  kids. I have been struggling since nov 1997, ive always been a rather hyper ADD personality, always on the go, I also have OCD, I started having panic attacks in 97 and now my world is  very small and very controlled. For instance, I will no longer ride with other people ( unless imediate family ) will not take a train or plane, go crazy in elevators, will not drive by myself for a long distance, and the list goes on and on. I hate it, have tryed sooo many differnt therapys. do not do meds b/c Im a control freak. Im extremely sad over this but I cant seem to change my brains thinking patterns, sometimes I wish I could just get hit in the head and not remember anything and start over. This is not supposed to be my life, i was always a control freak but now its crazy. I work from home, would love to have a chat buddy

maraknocka maraknocka
36-40, F
Mar 3, 2010