I Am Very Depressed

I HAVE A LOT OF PROBLEMS FIRST OFF I HAVE A STOMACH DISEASE THAT IS CALLED CELIAC SPRUE DISEASE IF U WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT IT THEN U ARE GOING TO HAVE TO LOOK IT UP ONLINE BC IT IS VERY HARD TO EXPLAIN!! I HAVE SEVERE DEPRESSION BC OF THE THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED TO ME IN MY LIFE! TO START OFF WHEN I LIVED AT HOME WITH MY DAD AND MY STEP MOM I HAD TO DO ALL THE HOUSE WORK AND TAKE CARE OF A BABY THAT WASNT MINE!! I HAD TO TAKE MY DAD AND MY STEP MOMS SHOES OFF AND PUT THEM BACK ON!! I ALSO HAD TO GET THEM EVERYTHING THEY WANTED!! WELL I FINALLY GOT OUT OF THERE ! WELL WHEN I WAS ABOUT 7 I WAS RAPED BY SOME KID THAT I DIDNT EVEN KNOW THEY BLIND FOLDED ME AND MY COUSIN HELD ME DOWN!! THEN WHEN I WAS ABOUT 11 OR 12 MY STEP FATHER MOLESTED ME AND NO ONE WANTS TO BELIEVE ME!! THEN I WATCHED MY GRANDMOTHER DIE THAT WAS A VERU SAD THING TO DO!! THEN I GOT PREGNANT AND I WAS SO HAPPY BUT THEN ON NEW YEARS EVE I HAD A MISCARRIAGE I WAS PREGNANT WITH TWINS THAT WAS SO SAD AND SO SCARY!! THEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL AND MY OTHER GRANDMOTHER PASSED AWAY AND I COULDNT EVEN GO TO HER FUNERAL!! MY FIANCES DAD HAD A SURGERY AND HIS INSIDES EXPLODED AND HE ALMOST DIED!! SO THAT WAS VERY SAD BUT HE IS HERE WITH US NOW!! SO I A M VERY DEPRESSED FROM ALL OF THAT!! I ALSO HAVE PANIC ATTACKS,OCD,I AM A GORAPHOBIAC! SO I GO TO MENTAL HEALTH A FEW TIMES A MONTH TO TALK TO MY THERAPIST AND FOR THEM TO ADJUST MY MEDICINE!! I AM ON ALL KINDS OF MEDICINE!!
xitsmex xitsmex
18-21, F
Jun 28, 2007