I have a tight grip on the "what ifs" of the past and I just can't let go no matter how desperate I am to shut that sh*t way of thinking off. That's all it is...destructive poisonous thinking that doesn't let you truly move the **** on. Wondering what you could have done differently, why you didn't have the courage to take control of your life and instead watched passively as things just happened to you instead of taking chances. How things could have turned out differently. It chips away at my soul every day.
Miamortis Miamortis
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 16, 2014

I hear you completely and I constantly replay what happened up to the point my girlfriend left. I just can't understand why. I think of things that I could have said or done differently, wondering if they would have made a difference. I wonder if she even thinks about me anymore.
I hope you find a way to shut off those thoughts in your head. Mine has been going on for a month now.
If ever you wish to talk, I may not be able to help but I am good at listening.

such a late reply. like wow, but thanks for your words, and for offering to listen.